Preface: the last week has been shit. Not much sleep on Monday night and also babies had a fever.
Sooo..... babies had a few spots yesterday. A few red spots on their tummy and their necks.
I originally thought it might be a reaction to a new food or something (new yoghurt and new pasta in one day? what was I thinking, I was practically asking trouble to come into our house and go on a wild bender, right?). We-ll... more spots today. A fuck load of more spots. Probably nothing to do with a new food or anything.
At 7.45am I took the babies to the local bulk-billing clinic (ie: free and no appointment necessary - not my Dr of choice but I knew we'd have to wait a day or so to see our regular GP) so we waited along with 4 other people for the doors to open.
The doctor took one look at Julius and said "Oh, chickenpox!"
And then he looked and George and said: "Oh, he has chickenpox too!".
Fuck my life.
Fuck it to hell and back.
OK, so it's not too bad (I know it could be a lot worse, shutup) but the last few days have been so fucking stupid - sleep-deprived - sick baby - parents-out-of-town - shit that you just can't believe it unless you've lived it. BUT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO POSSIBLY EXPLAIN FULLY. I just don't know how I'm going to get through even a few more days of this. To make matters worse, last night I broke out in chills/fever and wanted to only have coke (as in cola) and chips for dinner and have a fifteen hour hot shower and go to bed. I thought I was getting a cold or flu but luckily it's gone today.
Oh yeah and the cat vomited twice yesterday.
UUUURRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!
Since 6.30pm-ish I've been trying to get the babies to sleep. IT'S NOW AFTER 11.30pm!
At the risk of insulting every mother I've ever met (including my own mother and grandmother) - screw you, mothers of single babies, screw you!
I am not having a very good day (week, fortnight) so you'll have to excuse me.
Having babies is not all fluffy bunny rugs and kisses and watching sleeping babies with full tummies and going "ahh, aren't they beautiful? *sigh*". OK, some parts are like that but some moments are crap.
In conclusion: fuck you, chickenpox, fuck you.
oh sharnee i am so sorry...
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And...I'm in love with you. Best blog post ever.
ReplyDeleteOh Sharnee.... I love you.... and I love that you didn't candy coat (irony in your blog title, eh) the situation with a fluff post that says "oh the babes and I are doing great through this chicken pox sickness".... your honest posts are why I dig you so much.
ReplyDeleteLove and good energy being sent your way today!!
Im sorry your having a hard time while your babies are sick. I couldnt imagine what it's like to have 2 at the same time.. I remember times when I barely coped with just one.
ReplyDeleteBut I hope they are on the mend soon and you can all get some well deserved sleep!
Sending ~~~get well soon vibes to your beautiful boys~~~
((hugs))
Meaghan.
no offense taken, happily taking the abuse, cause holy hell, that really sucks!
ReplyDeleteOh no hon :( that is totally f**ked. I can understand a desire to roll up in the fetal position and cry yourself to sleep. If only the babies would do that right?
ReplyDeleteIs Stef off work? I wish I lived closer, I'd at least be helping you with the nightshift.. my girls haven't had chickenpox (yet!) but I'd risk it right now to give you a break, that's friggin' awful!!!!
Hi, I'm sorry to hear that you're having such a shitty time of it. I can't comprehend at all what you are dealing with. Do you have any help to fall back on - family or friends?
ReplyDeleteWhen I was little, I was crazy. I wanted triplets at once. Three babies, one pregnancy, and have all my kids at once. Not anymore. I'm now at the point where I think one child at once will be a stretch. I guess I'm lucky that my mum loves babies, and is dying for me to have one so she can babysit ALL THE TIME, but seriously, I think I can wait a little longer.
ReplyDeleteI have the utmost respect for you Sharnee, you are one strong woman to have not put them in daycare yet just to get some sleep!
Grin and Bear it, because I'm sure the cliché is correct, it WILL be worth it in the end.. (I know, totally NOT what you want to hear right now!)
Good luck!
Oh fuck, that's horrible and truly does sound like hell on earth. So sorry you have to deal with chicken pox and all the associated shit that goes with having sick bubs. I hope for the speedy return of your parents so you can at least get some sleep.
ReplyDeleteGet well soon, baby men. x
I swear, kids can sense when you're at your limits and they push you even further.
ReplyDeleteAmy and Isaac have been tag teaming me lately. He wakes up and she screams while I feed him, meaning that he doesn't go back to sleep and then I'm up all fucking night with one or the other.
At least in my case Amy is old enough to be told lay down, shut up and go to sleep.
Not so with your babies.
Sorry you're having a shitty time. I hope they're heaps better tonight, or at least slept in for you.
Oh no. NO. That would be pure hell.
ReplyDeleteOh I totally feel your pain. But love, this will pass. Twins DO get easier. My boys are much easier now at 3.5!
ReplyDeleteI swear, kids can sense when you're at your limits and they push you even further.
ReplyDeleteAmy and Isaac have been tag teaming me lately. He wakes up and she screams while I feed him, meaning that he doesn't go back to sleep and then I'm up all fucking night with one or the other.
At least in my case Amy is old enough to be told lay down, shut up and go to sleep.
Not so with your babies.
Sorry you're having a shitty time. I hope they're heaps better tonight, or at least slept in for you.
Oh Sharnee.... I love you.... and I love that you didn't candy coat (irony in your blog title, eh) the situation with a fluff post that says "oh the babes and I are doing great through this chicken pox sickness".... your honest posts are why I dig you so much.
ReplyDeleteLove and good energy being sent your way today!!
Im sorry your having a hard time while your babies are sick. I couldnt imagine what it's like to have 2 at the same time.. I remember times when I barely coped with just one.
ReplyDeleteBut I hope they are on the mend soon and you can all get some well deserved sleep!
Sending ~~~get well soon vibes to your beautiful boys~~~
((hugs))
Meaghan.
no offense taken, happily taking the abuse, cause holy hell, that really sucks!
ReplyDeleteOh I totally feel your pain. But love, this will pass. Twins DO get easier. My boys are much easier now at 3.5!
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